I’ll be turning 28 in October, and all around me my friends and family members are starting to settle down, get married, and have children. Meanwhile, I sit still waiting on God’s perfect timing and will to be done in my life. I’ve never really had a boyfriend, or gone out on a date before. I know this may seem sad to most people, but they don’t make good men like they used to, and I refuse to settle for less than what I deserve in a man just to say that I’ve gone out on a date. Yet, as the years go by, and my biological clock ticks slowly on, I’m starting to worry and wonder exactly what God’s plan and purpose for my love life is. It seems I’ve been successful in every other area and aspect of my life, but this one. I’d love to have a successful writing career some day, but my heart’s true desire is to have a love and family of my own. Recently, I’ve been talking on and off to a handsome young man who I believe could be my eventual life mate and soul mate, but the verdict’s still out on that one. I’ve made plans (a short 5-year plan to be exact) to adopt if I haven’t found love or gotten married by then, and I’m happy with that decision. Still, I know that it is not good that man should be alone. It pains me to even get so real and personal with you guys about my lifelong struggle with romantic love, but maybe my story can help someone else who struggles in the same area. When will I get married? When will I have children? These thoughts and questions keep replaying themselves in my mind, but I have no answers or solutions. I’m trusting God’s plan for my life. Sometimes, with a broken heart and tears in my eyes. Other times, coming so close to giving up on ever having a romantic love of my own. But God….
“Sometimes it hurts to talk about certain situations and circumstances in your life, but if you never talk about them, you’ll never heal”.